ready?

Am I ready?
I look out the window. Should I do it?
Should I risk it?
Have I something to lose?
No.

Go on.
I open the door,
walk across the street.
Past many people.
On thick, thin, large,
small, happy and sad
People over.

I stop short.
Look back to the window.
Did I forget something?
No.

I keep walking.
Through narrow streets
and deserted streets.
The sun goes down.
Is it too late?
No.

Soon I'll be there.
Only 2 blocks away.
Am I ready?
No.

I see it.
I am there.
Rigidity into the deep, cold,
blue water.

Is it right?
No.
Will it hurt?
No.
Am I ready?

I jump ...

you thought the happiness begins but the desperation came...

First I was very balanced. I had phases, where I were very happy or very sad. But then the devotion came and I thought that anything must be better.But this promise disappointed me because right now I feel desperate and without the meaningful of life....

...♥

Jar of Hearts - Christina Perri

And who do you think you are 
Running 'round leaving scars 
Collecting your jar of hearts 
And tearing love apart 
You're gonna catch a cold 
From the ice inside your soul 
So don't come back for me 

Don't come back at all.....♥

Can you take me to Wonderland...?

I’m not Snow White, but I’m lost inside this forest
I’m not Red Riding Hood, but I think the wolves have got me
Don’t watch those stilettos, I’m not, not Cinderella 
I don’t need a knight, so baby, take off all your armour

You be the Beast and I’ll be the Beauty-beauty
Who needs true love as long as you love me truly 
I want it all, but I want you more
Will you wake me up, boy, if I bite your poison apple

I don’t believe in fairytales (no no no)
I don’t believe in fairytales (no no no)
I don’t believe in fairytales, But I believe in you and me
Take me to Wonderland 
Take me to, take me to, take me to Wonderland 
Take me to, take me to, take me to Wonderland 
Take me to, take me to, take me to Wonderland 
Wonderland, Wonderland ... <3

The way to Wonderland ;)

Bin ich bereit?

Ich blicke aus dem Fenster.Soll ich das wirklich machen?
Soll ich es wagen?
Habe ich etwas zu verlieren?
Nein.

Also los.
Ich öffne die Tür,
laufe über die Straße.
An vielen Menschen vorbei.
An dicken, dünnen, großen,
kleinen, fröhlichen und traurigen
Menschen vorbei

Ich bleibe kurz stehen.
Blicke zurück zum Fenster.
Habe ich etwas vergessen?
Nein.

Ich laufe weiter.
Durch enge Straßen
und verlassene Gassen.
Die Sonne geht unter.
Ist es zu spät?
Nein.

Bald bin ich da.
Noch 2 Straßen weiter.
Bin ich bereit?
Nein.

Ich sehe es.
Ich bin da.
Starre ins tiefe, kalte,
blaue Wasser.

Ist es richtig?
Nein.
Wird es wehtun?
Nein.
Bin ich bereit?

Ich springe...